Hae You Gone Mental? (76)

My depession raised its ugly head over the weekend. It was real powerful. What did I do? I used some "DBT" techniques: following my breath deeply in and out and being mindful of each breath; I also used the method of obsserving and describing and my feelings of depession; finally I used the technique of distraction by getting involved an activity (such a playing wih my puppy and playing my piano.

These helped to some extent and I warded off self-desructive feelings, which has been an "old aqutaintance". It was hard work. I didn't want to do these things. I had to force myself. I just want to check out, recline in my chair and "veg" in front of T.V. My life may be taking a different course than it has been. Do these horrible thoughs happen to you?

Like I say, I am learning some DBT (Dialectic Behavioral Therapy). Within this framework, I'm learning 17 skills which provide resistance to depression and anxiety. I hope with practice this will he consistantly helpful. I will know it helps when I have fewer feelings of wanting to die.

I am enthuiastic about this form of therapy to control my wandering thoughts that often lead my feelings in a negative direction. My psycholigist is very helpful in this method. I strongly recommend it. I found a workbook: "Depressed and Anxious: the Dialectical Behavior Workbook for overcoming Depression and Anxiety."

I know how difficult depresion and anxiety is ... from experience. I know how hard it is to improve. If you wish to officially follow my blog I will pray for you as you deal with this disorder.

Thanks for reading.

Typos and All ... God Bless You